Turned the big seven oh today. I don't know why but I feel good about this new decade. I don't have all the answers, hell I don't even have all the questions yet. But I do know that one of the best things I ever did was to marry you & have those three strong, beautiful, talented girls. I recently had cataract surgery & while I was out of it, I had a dream that I saw Karma holding Brandon. She told me that they were okay & for me not to worry about them. Then I saw you & you said, "Everything is going to be all right." It felt so good to hear those words that I really do believe: it is going to be all right. I have the house on the market but if it doesn't sell that is okay. I can certainly stay here for a long time. I have moved down stairs & have closed off the upstairs. It is working out just fine. Every day I find something that you had done to make my life easier & I so appreciate it. You were the best & I didn't tell you near enough how much you meant to me. We had such a good life. It wasn't easy but nothing worthwhile ever is easy. I loved you through the good times & the not so good times. It was all worth it & I have no regrets. Thank you for taking such good care of me/us. I have no idea what the future holds but I know that it will be all right.