Another Father's Day has come & gone. It is interesting to note that now after 16 months, my life is slowly getting back to normal, a "new" normal. For the first year after your passing, I was allowed to play the "grieving widow" card & lots of family & friends were there to help me over any rough spots (holidays, your birthday, our wedding anniversary, etc.) But now in this second year, I am painfully aware that "I am on my own". But that is a good thing. The first 18 years of my live were lived with my loving parents. The next 48 years with you, my loving husband. Now at the age of 69 I am on my own without a clue what to do with the rest of my life. I still enjoy going to movies, artist receptions, UU church, playing euchre, camping, reading, bike riding, in other words, all the things that we enjoyed together. But now I have to call someone & ask them to join me. I never was good at instigating anything. I am not a leader but I am a damn good follower, if I do say so myself. God, I miss you! Keeping you in my heart & soul. It was good talking to you. Doro suggested I should use your lj to keep it active so I will try to do that. I have always felt intimated by you & Doro's writing skills but perhaps mine will improve with time. What do I have to loose?